The Verse Explained

For those of you that read this post for baby news, this isn't really about the baby. This is an explanation of the above verses and why they were significant to me. If I've lost you, that's ok, if I haven't then read on.
I feel that I've been struggling with God lately. It's not the 'Does God love me?' question because I've gone through that one and I believe that God loves me. It's not the 'Can I really trust God?' question because I've gone through that one too. They were hard struggles but I think I'm done those ones for now.
I've been having a problem actually naming my struggle because it seems a funny thing to struggle with. For those of you that know me, it's no secret that I wanted to be married and have kids. Well I got married last year and our baby is due in about a month. This is wonderful proof that God cares about my desires! These things have been almost the basis of my faith though. I thought, "If I trust God and get to the right spot in my walk with Him, He'll give me what I want." This has not been the case, I found out I was pregnant shortly after a temper tantrum with God. Marrying Ben was something that happened and I can't even remember when God started that one.
So I find that the hope (marriage and kids) that I had been trusting in God for was fulfilled. I still wanted to believe in God and go deeper, but what do I trust God for now? Little by little God has been telling me that it's time for a relationship, not just a 'I want this!' and God gives it to me or doesn't. I must confess that I'm not sure how to go about this and have been kind of avoiding spending time with Him cause I don't like to fail at things.
I did however ask Him for a glimpse of His plans for my future and God reminded me of my passion for adopting! (you will probably hear more of that from me) This is where I'm at right now.