On Friday last week, I took a pregnancy test. There were two lines, one was faint but the package said that's normal and it just meant that I took it early. We were very excited and started telling people right away. I had a sense of unreality so I took another one on Sunday (I had bought a brand name two pack cause it was on sale) It was also positive and the line was a little darker.
On Monday I started bleeding and we assumed it was a miscarriage. We went to the hospital last night and they did a urine pregnancy test and a blood pregnancy test. Both came back negative. The doctor said that if we had been pregnant, there would have been some indication.
I am glad that the tests were wrong and we didn't lose another little one but I'm worried about what this will do to my word. I try to be honest so when I tell people something, they believe me. Even though I want to be pregnant, I want the truth more. When I take a test, I pray that it will be the true result. We don't plan on buying brand name tests again since the cheaper ones seemed to work better.
God gave Ben and I the same picture of a little girl with dark hair. He gave it to us again and we think she may be one of the children that He has for us eventually but right now we are a little confused.
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